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I swear the mental spiral this chapter sent me into when it came out. Damn well broke me.

To anyone looking to read this manga be warned. If you have even the slightest regret with where you are with your life. This manga will emotionally beat you to death.

Well here I go getting beaten to non existence.

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What a way for a BOT like you to copy a comment from /u/Akashi2002.

Starting off, finishing it, What's the difference anyway? In the end all days seems alike and every night is the same. A depressive manga won't change it much would it.

Where do I sign up for emotional damage.

Neeko wa Tsurai yo

I like that she's just 23 and that's supposed to be too old to be starting your life.

What decades of being told you're a failure if you don't go to college and immediately get a fantastic job, buy a house and get married as soon as you graduate does to a mfer.

Lololol I was still passed out when I was 23.

I'm doing quite decent, except for the house and getting married part... But I'm also closer to 30 than I'm to 23.

Hat kid pfp spotted

I indeed have a hat kid profile picture.
It already happened a couple of times and I'm wondering why people points that out sometimes?

Because hat kid is cool.

To be fair to the folks who resonate with this, I only realized my early 20s were still part of the start of my life several years after they passed. Like yeah you get it logically, but everything feels like it has to happen all at once without your life being relatively on rails anymore and the concept of having an ultimate time limit really sinks in.

I do understand why they think that I just think it's funny that 23 is still crazy young in my book.

I'm 26 and will be turning 27, and I definitely resonated with this manga real hard. I feel like I'm old and done for now. Like wow, you're 26 and STILL working on finishing your undergrad? You have no job? And you still think you'll be viable to get into a vet med program? At your age?

Feels like I threw my entire life goals away because my traumas and PTSD finally caught up with me around 23 and I have been struggling so hard trying to recover to get on track.

Each day that passes I grow more and more lost and restless that I have achieved a grand total of nothing in life and I'm not a young person anymore. It feels like I wasted the sliver of opportunity I had when deciding to take my life more seriously at 17 and work towards college.

Time is inevitably going by and leaving me and my aspirations behind.

I totally understand, just turned 26 and those comments ā€œYou still havenā€™t finished your undergrad?ā€ Or ā€œDonā€™t you feel left behind by your friends?ā€ Are the absolute worst. Likeā€¦ Iā€™m trying ok? It really isnā€™t nice to feel like life is already gone

It's hard because it's always hard, but of course you'll still be able to get into a vet med program. If you are working towards it and really fight for it, that is enough. Schools love older students. Be yourself, you have a different story that stands out. You're better prepared for advanced studying than someone who just popped from school to school along the prescribed path.

26 is still young, though as someone who's also 26, I can't help but wish I were at least 22 because I feel like that's the age I should have been doing the stuff I'm doing now, if not even younger, but instead I ended up wasting a lot of years accomplishing nothing in all that time, and only now have more or less started to get my life together.

I'd say I'm doing pretty well now, but there is still that lingering feeling that I should have gotten my life together many years ago and it's awful to think that I basically wasted like 8 of my best years accomplishing absolutely nothing in all that time, and now I only have the last bits of my youth left.

In the same boat, I have been trying to stop imaging myself going back in time to fix my mistakes, because it started as an interesting thought to becoming a constant thought and an unhealthy coping mechanism.

Lifeā€™s rough, I see people with long term relationships, houses, properties, good jobs, college degrees, families, all things we tie with ā€œsuccessā€ and ā€œfulfillment.ā€ Those things were always a future goal, but as the years go by, the people achieving at least one or more are getting younger and younger than me. It sucks, buddy.

I can relate to that. Funnily enough I always tell myself "You can't travel back in time" every time I catch myself being more focused on lamenting a mistake than taking action and doing something to fix it or at least mitigate it. I used to wish I could have done things differently at some point but it's unhealthy to think like that and could be preventing you from doing things differently now, so I try to make it into an habit to avoid that line of thought and to focus on what can be done now.

I 100% agree, it is kind of where Iā€™m at now. Itā€™s just a hard thing to change what turns into a coping mechanism. It will always be easier to think about what you could have done better than to think what you can do now to make things better and actually do it. I appreciate you sharing your experience, itā€™s always good to hear of others who are in a similar situation but are also trying to find their way out.

I 100% agree, it is kind of where Iā€™m at now. Itā€™s just a hard thing to change what turns into a coping mechanism. It will always be easier to think about what you could have done better than to think what you can do now to make things better and actually do it. I appreciate you sharing your experience, itā€™s always good to hear of others who are in a similar situation but are also trying to find their way out.

I'm 23 as well and I've had these kinds of thoughts recently. Wondering if I've just been heading in completely the wrong direction...

I get the feeling I was meant to find this doujin right about now ā€” and in reading just a few pages, Neeko has become my new spirit animal.

As heart-wrenching as these stories can be, there's something about them that gives me comfort, like I'm not completely alone. Just like reading Aozora to Kumorizora when I was suicidal.

Shit dude, I donā€™t know many places that will hire someone as old as you. I donā€™t think many universities allow people as old as you to enroll either. I think youā€™re at the end buddy, might as well find the nearest assisted living facility but make sure youā€™re not too old first.

Assisted living? Nah fuck that, I won't even make it through the registration process. Better to keep it simple and stay self-sufficient.

MFW I press Enter

I firmly believe stories play an important role for us. A good story resonates much deeper than just "do x or y" ever will.

I'm 28 and I can say I've had similar thoughts. Just my 2 cents, but I don't think you ever "know" for certain if you're on the right path, but certainly talk with some family or friends to let them know how you might be feeling. Everyone's life path is different, so don't let it get you down if everything isn't immediately in place.

I don't mean to address this specifically to you, just maybe some general advice for anyone reading this.

Don't worry man you can fuck up for a good 10 years and still be ok

>Me a 31 year old failure

Pfft,amateurs

If you compare yourself to your friends.. yes its kind of like that. Most would be done with college taking their respected jobs while some will be still in achools for their Masters. All the while you are behind and still figuring things out about life.

Now this is worse thing in my life rn. They left me behind, and I'm still here what the heck am I supposed to do now. Reaching to 25 years old is not far away, and I'll regret that if I don't at least cope now.

Days of Covid really did the impact of me.

Im 26 and i feel you . ive made some pretty minor and small improvements these past 1-2 years in my mental health. If you need anyone to talk my dms are open.

Existential crisis is real, best cultivated during late teenage years when you start to gain insight in life, understand the limitation of time on earth, yet to achieve any skills to place yourself in the world, and still have time and energy for introspection and the leisure to feel such angst. In adulthood I'm just glad to not be at work

Because of the culture the plot was created in. In a country where people die from overwork, 23 is already well behind schedule.

Damn almost same age as me too ..life is shit

Wait its made by aldehyde?

new chapter never

Huh, this wasnā€™t nearly as depressing as I thought itā€™d be. Like, at all. Iā€™m mostly concerned about the MCā€™s clear anxiety disorder.

I have already been in a rough spot for a few years, might as well go deeper. Thanks for the recommendation and the link.

Favorite part, the last chapter of the series is not translated and itā€™s been over 6 months since the prior translation upload, just pure icing on the cake.

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I like to view life as a trajectory, there usually isn't a single moment or event where things suddenly spelled doom for your future. It wasn't one day, one moment, or usually even one person that is responsible for where you are. It's a culmination of everything informing where you are headed at any particular moment in life, and sufficient time for that vector to play out.

All that to say, you almost always have some control over your trajectory. You can choose today to be the day that you start preparing your future self to be in a better position than your current self. Whether that's not eating that one extra cookie, actually submitting that job application, or just messaging your best bud that you haven't talked to in waaaaay too long.

We are all a multitude of factors, conditions, and our own will. So exert what control you do have over this world and take the initiative when you can.

I'm just rambling so I'll end with a quote I like that's semi-related; "if not us, who? And if not now, when?" You are the master of your fate and today will never be tomorrow.

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Iā€™m happy youā€™re still here with us and giving amazing advice.

> Be me

> Got job

> Got raise

> Still feel like a loser

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towards the version of you that you want to be

I want to be a NEET actually. I take my annual leave just to be a shut in for a week. Feels great. But bills are not paying themselves.

You can't rely on "I feel/don't feel like it today" to decide if you're gonna do something, because you're never gonna do it.

This. One thing I learned while studying to get a public job is that you have to put in the effort first, when you're totally not feeling like it, and you'll get the motivation to do it after you've started. Not before.

They say the most important step a person can take is not the first nor the last, it's the next one. Always the next one. I can assure you though, that the hardest step to take is always the first one. So force yourself to take the first step. You might need to force yourself to take the second step, too. But I guarantee you, each new step will be easier and easier to take.

Eventually, stopping is going to be the hard thing to do. Seriously.

This is very eloquent and immensely inspiring to read and it's a very rational to understand concept. Thank you so very much for this rambling. It's deeply motivating

Thank you. That means a lot to me.

I hope it was helpful and I wish you the best of luck in the future.

Yup. Its terrfying.

I think this is one of the hardest thing of being a born prodigy like I was. I was really smart when I was younger I was able to read full on chapter books and had the reading composition of an eighth grade before Kinder Garten and then I fell off the wagon in middle school and these last few years have been tough knowing that Iā€™m capable of so much more but here I am skating through high school with barely a 3.0 average my mental health has improved since then but always know people will be there to help you improve you just have to look. ( sorry for the rant but I felt like sharing my story šŸ™ƒ)

I dont know if i was a prodigy, but I always felt smarter than they people around me. By which I mean my peers treated me like I was a "genius". But my whole school carreer was a slow downhill slide. My grades got worse through middle school, and through High School i started failing classes, sometimes even subjects I was really good at. I survived high school, and tried going to community college, but failed at that too and now I work part time at a minimum wage retail job pushing shopping carts and live with my parents.

...Is where the story would have ended 10 years ago. Since then I've gone back to college, earned a degree, become fluent in Japanese, and moved to Japan for work.

This didn't happen in spite of my time working retail, it happened precicely because of those experiences. They helped me to learn and grow, even though at the time I felt frozen in place. No matter where you're at, you can always get back on track. Maybe not the one you envisioned when you were a kid, but theres lots of good tracks out there waiting to be found.

I want to warn you; college is going to be really really hard. But it will not be impossible.

This and another, much shorter manga, She Doesn't Know Why She Lives are oddly some of my favorite works. The latter being one where I bought them in Japanese, despite not being able to read Japanese, just because I wanted to make sure they had a place on my bookshelf.

Though, legit warning for that recommendation, I recall a comment on the thread I found it something to the tune of "I'm afraid to recommend this to any of my friends, because they might see it as a cry for help", which I can understand, but it's also just very well written.

Thanks for recommending this, I really enjoyed this manga a lot, It was painfully relatable and has me rethinking my life.

3 days of Happiness is another novel/manga in the same vein.

I read these 8 panels and I already feel like I need to browse /r/suicidewatch but I also am now really curious about the story because it feels really interesting

I mean does it have a point about healing or managing expectations? Or does it just batter it's readers, feigning trauma as good content?

It does actually involves efforts at healing and improving. It can be pretty rough at times (I'm in pretty much the same boat as Neeko so it hit hard) but is ultimately positive rather than just wallowing in misery and never progressing. It also does throw in some comedy too. It mostly does help motivate me to do better.

ETA: this imo is the most brutal part of the series, though her panic when faced with job search was uncomfortably real to me too.

Well. Anyone who is their own worst enemy. And is holding themselves back due to social anxiety, self doubt, inferiority complex, etc. All the negative thoughts & emotions that seethe in our self loathing minds get put on paper in this womans story.

You feel very called out.

Depression? Isn't that just feeling bummed out all the time?

u/The-Sublimer-One, you ignorant slut! It's a very serious illness!

Lol how no one seemed to get my half of the quote

No worry, it has its low time and good time. The manga tends to lean on good time too.

But man, it does sucker punch sometimes.

I'm emotionally dead already so fuck it

Promise it'll kill me?

I don't need it; I am already a professional in that.

And as a professional I also recommend adding some existential crisis on top: there is no sense or purpose to our existence, so there is no success condition. You're not only a failure, but it's also impossible not to be a failure, everything is a failure, failure is endless and eternal.

Bet. Letā€™s go down this fucking rabbit hole!

Iā€™m assuming it will vaporize me into non-existence then

You're telling me I can go get beat to death for free?

This post alone nearly did me in. Geez.

I already read punpun. Just give me the title of that one.

Ehh I already did that myself with 13 years and counting of depression and anxiety.

As long as it makes me kill myself, it's all ok.

Probably my only regret back in highschool is that I didn't attend the final prom, just because I was bitter coz I was rejected by the girl I was crushing on. To support me, my best friends also didnt attend and just came to hang out at my place to have drinks, instead of dancing with pretty girls. I feel like I held them back, but they assured me that it wasnt the case. But I still feel guilty

I let oyasumi punpun beat me to death and this will beat me to a pulp, wish me luck

It can't hurt me anymore than I hurt myself.

Damn, at least its a less painful way to die

I shall stay away then

I still want to stay in this comfort zone

I donā€™t have to read the manga. This post was more than enough for me to spiral.

I need it to see if this is true lmao

Goodnight punpun be like

The translators even put a trigger warning at the start of the chapter, shit was rough

I have a lot of regrets, so no thanks ā˜ŗļø

I have already made amends with my past regrets. Now, everytime I read this kind of material, it gives me a nostalgic feeling instead of pain and bitterness.

Yeah didnā€™t expect this manga to get so real. straight up Im just like ā€œyeah we should both kill ourselvesā€ every other chapter.

What a way to start off the day with immediate depression

Hey man itā€™s never too late to become that adult you can be proud of. Sometimes reaching your dreams/goals can be slow but you just gotta be patient and put in the work to reach them

life is hard and we're only human. what matters is that you keep trying to get where you want to be no matter the opposition. even if you fail to improve the first time, take a breather and try again.

either serious or minor, for others or for yourself, lasting or fleeting: redemption is something you can strive for until your final breath.

Hey man itā€™s never too late to become that adult you can be proud of.

As long as those things you pride are extreme sports...

Also, dreams and goals can and do change sometimes. And it's not a bad thing that happens.

Itā€™s not about our success. For me, I hate the adult I am because I genuinely think I am a bad person. I can work on it as much as I want and it keeps me from fucking everything up, but if I slip for just a second then I go back immediately.

!Iā€™m okay btw, Ima keep trying it just sucks!<

People often forget how there's always time for changing your life. Nothing is set in stone, and while it may be scary, you can break out of the loop.

what a way to end the day with immediate depression

Ha jokes on them. I already start every day with immediate depression.

It's too IRL. I hate it

Man thatā€™s depressing

She just needs to join twitch and allā€™s good

They actually had a Vtuber for this manga lol

Bro I know right, I just got done with the Internet Historian video on that cave guy.

Thought I'd come on Reddit to laugh at some dumb memes, not further spiral into hating life and existential dread

do you have the link? I can't seem to find it anymore for some reason and I thought it was taken down

Yeah I think he himself took it down because some things were incorrect and he wanted to remaster it. Don't know where the reupload went though, I had to watch a react version of it (which wasn't too bad actually), still got the full video

so react videos do have at least some value lol

thanks for the answer btw I'll see if I can find it

The trick is to get the ones that aren't just like "Oh man das crazy. Y'all be wilding right now. Oh shiiiiit!. Anyway so that was a thing. Like subscribe all that stuff, check out my socials, catch y'all later."

Meh... I've seen worse

Okay

I guess you guys took that a little seriously...

You just forgot that depressing < cute gamer girl depressing.

Who asked?

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Then you are not needed here, come to hell with me

So you've seen the mirror huh

Have you?

Yeah, but unfortunately it was 2 way mirror through yours. All I see is some dumbass

What makes you think I look like a dumbass, just because you disagree with my statement? Isn't that a bit too fast to view someone...

I'm sorry, I thought you wanna roast each other judging by previous response. You're absolutely right, there is nothing wrong with controversial statement, this is free world after all. Please don't take it to the heart.

Understandable have a good day šŸ‘

So.... I said that almost everything in this manga can be put here, so... Here is the easiest.

Source: It's tough being Neeko.

Does it have an anime?

I hope so, and hope not at the same time. Its hard on the heart if youre not in a good place.

You know, this kinda applies to Elfen Lied and A Silent Voice too.

Of all the anime I've ever seen, Elfen Lied still holds a unique position that it's the only piece of AV media to truly break me as a person.

It deals with a lot of the kind of trauma I dealt with growing up and into young adulthood, things I was still dealing with at the time and the bleakness of Lucy's life and the way the anime ends left an emotional wound that has never, honestly, truly healed.

A Silent Voice also hit really fucking close to home for very similar reasons.

Especially as someone who deals with (partial)deafness, a long history of bullying, and has dealt with suicide attempts.

The big difference though was that I saw A Silent Voice long after I saw Elfen Lied. I saw Elfen Lied in a place in my life where I was very much NOT ok. I was a very broken person in a very fucked up and terrible place in my life. But that exposure was ultimately what lead to me facing a lot of my own demons and challenges and denial about myself, and turning around and trying to heal and become a better person. But I have never really forgotten the emotional scars it left behind.

A Silent Voice hit me in a lot of the same memories but I was in a much safer place in life and had already processed through and healed through many things thanks to EL.

None the less A Silent Voice hit deep where it hurt and it became a very special film for me.

I think both need to be experienced at the right time, or they can really REALLY fuck you up.

Cinema therapy (on YouTube) did a great video on A Silent Voice.

They pointed out the significance of the MC being called out by Yuzuru and at that moment he lowered his umbrella because he couldnā€™t look her in the eye.

And then he apologized and told her the truth.

Which lead to her stepping forward, moving the umbrella, and looking him in the eyes without saying a word.

As if to say ā€œI see you now as a human being (and not just the things youā€™ve done)ā€ and having a real moment of human connection.

Something about that made me fall in love with the film and I ended up watching it like 20 times and adopting Yuzuru in my heart.

(For readers Spoiler territory ahead for both A Silent Voice and Elfen Lied)

For me personally, Shouko's life experiences hit on a very personal level and I think...

seeing Shouya get what we all wished bullies really would happened to them really hit on a mark that I felt was a HUGE wish fulfillment for people who ever got bullied severely to the point Shouko was, and never saw anyone punished for it.

But then it went beyond and the character didn't resent what happened to him, but instead actually felt deep remorse and a reason to make a real apology about it.

We all know that never happens in real life. It's an absolute wish fulfillment fantasy.

And a lot of times that's a really weak way to write things and is considered almost always really poor writing.

But A Silent Voice takes this and absolutely turns it around and makes it exactly what someone who went through that kind of bullying needed to see.

Seeing the way people's lives were turned upside down, and all the real reasons for regret and remorse, it pulled at some of the most painfully deep and scarred parts of my own experiences.

It's exactly in the same vein of reason why Elfen Lied hit so fucking hard for me. This situation in Elfen Lied, the last episode does this between Parent and Child. With Mariko and Kurama, that last few scenes between them on the island. It pulls at the deepest parts of the pain of still desperately loving your parent, despite that parent being the very reason you suffered for so many ears of your life in utter misery.

Those scenes are what broke me. That monolog Mariko makes towards her father, and the way he actually takes the blame, and means to change, that is what shattered who I was as a person and forced me to took at my life's experiences unfiltered in a way I couldn't escape.

I love both for exactly the same reason, they fact they pulled at the most deeply painful emotions people can really suffer through in their interpersonal relationships, and pulls out what someone who went through that needs to see and hear.

They both have moments that cut deep, and bring out the moment that needs to happen so people can start heal and move on.

That's why both are so precious to me.

Dammit. I don't I'll get any better soon but I still wanna watch those things. Might try it anyway wish me luck

I wanna hear the mangakas life story. To be able to make this they must have gone through this, but to be that self aware they must be pretty well adjusted.

please tell me it has a happy ending, or if it isn't finished that it may be heading that way. i dont think i can read it without at least an illusion of hope

It ended half a year ago. I haven't finished it but she does have some slow progress, leaving the house more often and talking with friends.

Really? Last I checked, it was still ongoing

It's status is set as completed on mangadex and mangaupdates. Checked the author and no apparent sequel or continuation. The most recent chapters titles give off the feeling of wrapping things up. I'm not 100% sure but I am inclined to believe it has ended.

Tags: drama, comedy, slice of life

I meanā€¦ its kinda funny if you donā€™t relate to her. Though if you can tolerate reading this without being annoyed or hating yourself, Im interested to hear your life story.

This still hurts every single time I read it. Things eventually turned out okay for me, but I remember being in Neekoā€™s shoes so vividly.

Pain

Without love.

Pain.

I can't get enough.

Pain.

I like it rough.

Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling numb

You're not the only one

I know that this was supposed to be depressing and hit homes and what not, but I would killed to have such a collection of retro consoles of hers. Still hate my younger self for trading in old consoles and games for newer gen machines

My friend have a old PS2 silver version that he plays on CRT monitors, I'm jealous

Hahahah Iā€™m dead. Great energy on this thread

Extremely realistic Anime_irl

Everyone always complains that the posts arenā€™t actually irl, but the second it is we are all in shambles.

Too me irl

I have to say that if I could somehow talk to my suicidal 15 year old self, Iā€™d be tempted to say ā€œItā€™s not going to get any betterā€

While I donā€™t exactly have a long list of regrets, there are plenty of things in my life that I did wrong. I never really made any friends. I havenā€™t been able to apply myself properly in school and donā€™t have a good idea of a career path. I worry about being able to make a decent living. Iā€™d like to meet someone and start a family but donā€™t think that I ever will.

Though it might not be so bad for me now. Iā€™m buying a new car in September. I have aā€¦very expensive toy (donā€™t ask) arriving tomorrow that I think I will get a lot of enjoyment out of.

So even though I have plenty of regrets in life, maybe I actually could say to my 15 year old self that things will get better.

Had to scroll too far this take, my life in school was horrible. Shit at least now I donā€™t have people tossing random crap at me and then laughing. Not sure what the mcā€™s life is like, but damn am I envious of her collection of retro game consoles. Thatā€™s at least one bright spot, if thereā€™s nothing else.

Yeah thats the worst part. its not reasonable for her to hate herself so much, and her life is mainly held back by her self loathing, which is too relatable.

Looking back with hindsight, I tend to think that I've missed out on a lot. I was the quiet kid in my class, didn't really talk to anyone, always kept to myself, did enough in school to get average grades, stuff like that.

Now I'm an adult and have to socialize with people at work. Let's just say I'm dogshit at maintaining a conversation, but I'm getting better. Getting out of your comfort zone helps, as horrifying as it seems.

I still think I've missed out on a lot, and wasted time. There are a lot of things I enjoy, but never actually did much with it. For instance, I enjoy music and drawing whenever I listen to it or do it, but I never actually did anything with those interests, or many others I had. In hindsight, I think my consumption of video games might've been an escape, a coping mechanism I unknowingly adopted to distract myself from the feelings of loneliness.

I loathe that regret. I loathe the feelings. I despise it.

Reflecting on it, I've realised that it's pointless feeling and thinking like that. Thinking "what if I did this", and "if only I did that." It's pointless and a waste of time.

One day, I signed up for a music school. I bought a drawing tablet. The best time to start with your interests is now. Gatekeepers will be gatekeepers, but the ones who are truly passionate about their craft would be absolutely delighted to give tips to even a 90 year old man just starting out.

I know you have interests, I know there are things you enjoy. You don't need to become Picasso, you don't need to be Bach. You just need to be you. Fuck the people who say "You stop learning at 30". How the fuck do you think my 40+ year old parents learned another language?

This also applies to anyone who reads this, not just the one I'm replying to. It's okay to fail, just get back up and try again. Allow yourself to fail, because that's how you get better.

And perhaps most importantly; have fun. Life's too short to lament missed opportunities.

Tell them they get stronger instead of "it's gonna get better".

Hit me where it hurts, why dontchya?

We are in this sub for a reasonā€¦

Well, this was me irl 3 years ago, but... It's never too late to become someone you can be proud of.

Same here. Never miss an opportunity to change, to experience something new.

Proud of you. Keep at it boss.

If you do not mind me asking, what changed? Why were you not proud of yourself 3 years ago and why are you proud of yourself now?

Based on their profile, transitioning. I'm hoping I can say the same about myself in 3 years once I can finally start hrt. Unfortunately with where I am I have to stay closeted until I can physically move away from family. I currently self loathe as much as you can and always have as far back as I can remember. I just wanna be happy šŸ˜­

Who needs to be happy when you can be horny?

Well, I gotta admit, being a girl now is kind of the main thing. But that was really just the catalyst that set off a chain reaction of self-love and self-improvement. I made friends. I fell in love. I embraced my autism. I inproved my personal hygiene. I confronted my trauma. What I'm getting at here is that even though most people wouldn't benefit from transition, I think a lot of sad, lonely people have something like that: one big, terrible thing that's rotting inside their heart and holding them back from fixing everything else. You know what I mean? Sorry, that was a bit of a rant.

Hell yeah, love to hear it. Maybe one day Iā€™ll figure out what that one thing is.

I always find it interesting that so many trans people have autism and other mental health issues.

Do you think they are somehow linked? Or just a coincidence?

There's absolutely a link. The link between transgender identities and autism's pretty well-established scientifically, although no one quite knows why. I think part of it is that we're just more likely to figure out we're trans. We might be a bit better at seeing how arbitrary gender roles are, because all social conventions tend to look arbitrary to us. Or maybe our reduced ability to filter sensory input makes gender dysphoria harder to ignore. Who knows, really.

As for the mental health though, well, I for one think that stubbornly trying to be entirely the wrong person for 20+ years just messed me up a little.

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"Please don't use the word health." Seriously? In a totally irrelevant context? I feel like the detection on this bot is a little over-eager, and I say that as someone who genuinely loves being fat.

Harmful spam bot, has been banned.

Well, this was me irl 3 years ago, but... It's never too late to become someone you can be proud of.

I agree.

I'm 27, and just got my bachelor's degree last December. Granted, right now I'm working for a damn call center.

Currently I'm in consideration for an internal promotional position that probably pays a little better than $14/h. In the meantime I'm also in consideration for another job that while in the grand scheme of things doesn't pay much, is a dream job of mine.

While college certainly isn't for everyone, and there are many, many people who make a killing without need for an education, it certainly does help to have that piece of paper open more doors for you. Here's hoping my efforts get me to where little kid me can only dream of being.

Profile pic fits.

Im in this image and i dont like it

Man fuck you I didn't need this reality check

anime_irl is actually irl

Finally some actual anime_irl

Sigh

Cocks a Glock

points gun towards head

I guess this is it

His final words:

ā€œWell, it is what it isā€

Josuke enters the scene

Dio intercepts and kisses OP before he fires the gun

Dio: "Ha! It is me Dio! That took your first kiss!"

...That's what the invisible demon that stalks me said when it noticed I was just acting to catch it off guard so I could slightly angle the gun away from my head and shoot it.

Oh neat yu-gi-oh

I know that this might not be the right place for this, but these pages would have hit me hard a few years ago. I'm 33 years old and was a shut in with massive anxiety for almost my entire life. Never went to grade school or anything, so didn't know how to do simple things like divide or multiply. Never held someone's hand, never had a job, basically was waiting to die and rotting away in a filthy room while playing video games all day to distract myself from the constant panic attacks I was having. Panicked when I turned 30 and realized I wasted my youth, got off my ass, got my GED after taking classes for it in the dingy basement of a public library, and just got my Associate's of Science on May 1st of this year after graduating with high honors (3.8 GPA). First job was being the college's tutor for aspiring nurses and radiology technicians struggling with anatomy and physiology! I also just found out that I'm getting a full academic scholarship to a college across the country to study molecular biology, so I'm finally moving out of my mom's house and going somewhere where I don't know anyone and can have a fresh start. It's terrifying, but I'm so incredibly excited.

Seriously, you reading this. If I was able to make a change, you can! It doesn't matter your age, income, or anything like that. If you want it, work for it - you'll achieve it.

Thank you. Your comment gave me hope.

That is a big hole you got out of. Good job! Proud of ya!

good looksšŸ’Ŗ

When I said i wanted a gamer girl im not sure this is what i meant. two of us can't make a big ol mess like this and exist in the same space

Why have you done this?

If y'all are into this type of vibe for manga then I highly recommend 3 days of happiness and frieren too.

Frieren is about an elf that has lived for thousands of years and it's pretty emotional.

I mean Cowboy Bepop has a scene that is basically this. Like the whole episode is pretty silly and light, and then at the very end they pull the rug and resolve a major plot line with almost this exact scene.

That entire manga is just r/2anime_irl4anime_irl

This is what I prefer to see in this sub. I don't care if it's depressing, it's real.

If my past self ever saw me now they would have gained the will to use the knife

šŸŽ¶ and if you look at your reflection, is that all you want it to be? šŸŽ¶

Iā€™m recovering from hoarding and have changed my life around. Itā€™s a weekly and daily struggle honestly, depression is hell, but if someone like me can do it, start this long journey and improve everyday, then anybody can. Still have to cut back on social media time and video games, but itā€™s been more successful the more Iā€™ve cut out. I hate how relatable this is and how some people just donā€™t know what itā€™s like.

Well thenā€¦

Ok. But, to be fair, middle-school me would be tremendously proud of that console collection....

This whole part actually made me cry, this was too real

I was an angry child. I am an angry adult. If anything my past self would be mad at me for becoming more apathetic and losing some of that anger. For not doing more. I donā€™t think I will ever not be angry but I donā€™t regret the person I have become. Not right now at least.

Why is her hair color different? Did her hair turn white from depression like Ken Kaneki?

A lot of brunette girls die their hair blonde once they have money and free will

Donā€™t you notice most girls under 18 arenā€™t blondes yet adult women blonde are plenty? Fake blonde phenomenon

There's no way this mess of a girl has the organizational skills to regularly dye her hair. If it was died, there would be a few inches of the original color at the roots

Lol.

Women do it at hairdresser salon. By professionals. Or else it look orange, not natural looking.

And by having spend some time with men, I czn tell you that if you die the roots progressively into tour natural color, men have no clue. I dye my hair, and men are dumbfounded when I tell them. yet I only dye them once every three or six month.

No need for organization, just money. Itā€™s expensive

Who said you could post actual relatable content? šŸ˜­ donā€™t do me like thisssss.

Remember, can't be disappointed if you don't have expectations.

I don't know, I would like to be like that, but just with a tidier room, and with my current job.

What is this sensation i have in my chest.... Feels unpleasant.......

This is probably the most anime irl post in this subreddit

I was not prepared for this level of emotional damage

Oooffff. I remember reading this when I just graduated and was struggling finding a job. This scene actually made me cry.

God I live like this and love every second of it. I don't get the drive to make something of myself, as long as I have video games and anime I'm happy.

When we were young, the future was so bright
The old neighborhood was so alive
And every kid on the whole damn street
Was gonna make it big and not be beat
Now the neighborhood's cracked and torn
The kids are grown up, but their lives are worn
How can one little street swallow so many lives?

My friends and I made a Discord server back in 2019 where we could chat while we play multiplayer games like Phasmophobia, Dota, Valorant, etc. every night. Now, everyone's busy with work, two of them broke up, one's head over heels with another member, and now only two out of nine of us remain. Both of us just bought Outlast Trials but none of our friends are there anymore. We see them online but no one enters our Discord anymore. The two of us just play single player games now unless we invite each other to play.

We're both introverts and we're not really fans of multiplayer games but we just enjoy playing with our friends. Kinda sadge moment.

I feel the same way and that what Iā€™m doing right now is the thing or something I keep telling myself. (Ngl sometimes I think I just need someone to tell me Iā€™m doing a good job or just to hug me)

You're doing great dude, we're gonna make it

This is just the type of thing that happens in a society where people are encouraged to leave each other behind in the pursuit of success. Even now, I wish every day that my old friends would at least try to contact me. No wonder everyone is so lonely.

Iā€™ve read gore and psychological horror, yet to this day this is the only chapter of a manga that Iā€™ve ever read that had a trigger warning

Okay that's enough reddit for me, i come here to relax...not to rethink my life choices

I'm in that picture and I hate it

If you stay stuck in the past, and decide at one point of your life that the best moment where when you were younger, that the end that will inevitably follow, it's a sad one so lease if you dont like being depressed force yourself (because i know it's not easy ar all) to overcome the child in you and try day per day to grow up, you're not a child anymore, life is hard do what is necessary and you will be suprised on how you are really capable of. This is an indirect message to me, and to anybody who think of surrendering, don't do it, you are far more strong thank you think and if you try with intent, real intent, you will accomplish what you would never have bilieved! english is not my first language, so if there is any mistakes i'm sorry, but i hope i've been clear! (and please do correct me, have a nice one y'all!)

Rough, but if youā€™re reading this, itā€™s not too late. Make today the day you become the future you that past you would be proud of. Every job application rejection, every turned down love confession, every single ā€œfailureā€ youā€™ve experienced is just a stepping stone on your path in life. Life is a struggle, but you can bring meaning to it yourself. Take a walk outside and just enjoy the fact that God (or the universe or whatever you believe in) decided to put you here at this exact moment in time with near unlimited resources at your fingertips.

Is your room messy? Start by deciding to clean one spot and go from there. Take it one piece at a time. Jobless? Start putting in applications. Youā€™ve been rejected a bunch? Itā€™s gonna sound like a boomer take, but go to your closest fast food place and ask the manager for a job. Theyā€™re so short staffed. Start saving from there. You may not be a millionaire and itā€™s gonna suck, but having a job and making money after being a shut-in loser is gonna bring you fulfillment in life and with that experience better job opportunities. Canā€™t find a lover? Just focus on improving yourself and YOUR life and itā€™ll work itself out. No one is gonna want to be lovers with a loser who canā€™t get their life together. Even if you donā€™t end up finding a companion, you can take pride in the fact that you have improved TREMENDOUSLY from today.

Life isnā€™t a straight path. Thereā€™s twist and turns and sometimes you get taken off the path completely. But if you struggle enough and focus on improving yourself, you will eventually find your way back. It may not be the exact trajectory you planned, but youā€™ll be alive and you can take pride in the fact that YOU carved your own path.

Nihilism isnā€™t cool. Itā€™s just a coping mechanism for losers. Life can be beautiful, but YOU have to find it.

Damn this is too tragic.

Best time to start improving was yesterday, next best time is now.

Damn. Sub is throwing sluggers today. Damn good post.

What are the three sticks for?

i believe they are shuttercock containers , used in badminton

She's just like me fr fr.

Why would you do this to me

Finally some anime_irl

Dude, too real

keep going.

keep working at it.

things can and do get better.

they can't get better if there's no point of comparison. the good times can't exist if there are no bad times.

one step forward per week, or month, is still one step forward.

fuckin relatable though neeko

Damn bro this gon be me in the future

That hits way too close to home holy shit

You fools had expectations on yourselves? I never believed in myself so anywhere I go besides a early coffin is more than great!

Jokes aside, yeah it sucks, but it's never late to change.

Knew a girl once that became the first female train operator in the area, then a teacher, she then started managing people on a private school, but she had a degree in physics or whatever, completely unrelated shit. You just have to be strong, and stop mentally torturing yourself for being young and naive.

Anyways, YOU SHOULD BELIEVE IN YOURSELF, NOW!

are they using the steering wheel controllers for mario kart? damn, respect

What are those 3 black cylindrical objects next to her in the last panel?

Graduation certificates I assume.

This probably is the most irl for most people here

Damn, I want to hug her. ;_;

Why does it look like some tragedy happened, all her friends are dead, and couldn't handle the survivor guilt so she became a shut in?

Why must you hurt us like this.

I'm still in highschool but damn... this hits me hard. I always do my best in school, chasing those A grades even if it feels like I want to die. Because I want to be what anyone expect me to be. A productive, successful, and responsible adult in society. I don't want to be what they called "failure". I'm really anxious and terrified that things will not go well and.... I become a failure. Unable to keep my family, teacher, and classmates expectations. Failed to be the person they and I can be proud of.

Thanks, this is a great way to worsen my anxiety.

Oh have I mentioned that I'm almost in my last year and I still don't know what career path I want to do?

Man this hits the feels, but I can't remember the last time life hasn't been a slog. Idk which direction to even go to fix that either.

Shit, this hits home. Being a cute girl aside.

i hate it here

Unrelatable because my dreams were already crushed as a child and so I have no inner child to disappoint šŸ˜Ž

Iā€™m not a dude who is really an emotional person at all and I typically stay pretty thick skinned about things. But after reading this, it straight up made me cryā€¦ all I can now think about is how I feel like I let myself down and never moved forward from the rut of a basic job. Iā€™m 28 and I still have yet to find a career and life that I would personally see as successful. To my younger self.. my dudeā€¦ Iā€™m so sorry! There has been so much potential I could have had over the years but it feels like I let those slip out of my hands without even attempting at gripping it. I hope you can forgive me, my younger self.. I still want to show you that I can still be the person I strive to be. It may not be the same, but I still hope to make you proud!

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It's still a comedy, so you will see jokes here and there. And eventualy, Neeko got a bit better. But, no one translated the last chapter, so I can't say what the ending was.

Don't worry guys keep reading she will do better.

To who ever made this, well done story and fuck you

Never too late to work on yourself, never forget to appreciate small victories.

1: I didn't need to be personally attacked today, thanks.

2: It hits worse because I didn't even have that childhood: I was by myself except for when people needed something because I was good at things.

Imagine the only reason anyone invites you to play Halo with them is because you know how to get all the skulls for Hayabusa armor.

Definitly hated my life as a child more than as an adult, so can't relate

And she's still wearing that elementary school bagpack lmao

Clean your damn room. I know it wont solve depression but it will help you think clearer. Start with one corner and work your way from their rather than thinking about the whole room.

Hey, that's not fair. You can be proud of that game collection.
Seriously. 2 gameboys, gba, n64, DS, that's some good stuff

Same

...Emotional Damage...

I can fix her

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A surgeon? Ugh can you imagine screwing up and killing people on a bad day? No thank you sir, you made the right choice, surgeons are mental.

There's no amount of therapy or support that can help people like this

I can fix her

Wtf and this has the comedy tag on most mange pages jajaja sarcastic monsters everywhere

Ha fucking loser

Been there, done that.

Perfect.

Out of curiosityā€¦is there an ending to this manga, and if so, how?

It has ended, but no oneā€™s translated the last chapter yet (that Iā€™ve seen, anyway).

I can't relate to this because elementary and middle school me was just as much of a lazy fuck as I am now.

This really hurts

Probably many people have gone through this same thing growing up. Things change from when we were younger to become adults

Damn, this shit doing numbers. On everybodyšŸ˜”

Actually anime_irl...

Sad reallity or sad Life...

As josuke once said oi never talk negatively about yourself you deserve to be loved and appreciated

Sauce

r/2anime_irl4anime_irl

Too irl

Oh man I think this chapter had a disclaimer in case anyone reading had some depression or in a bad mental state.

This manga is mostly fun and comedy but it does hit close to home if you've ever been in this situation

This is... sad.

Fuck

damn

this manga is a perfect example of too irl for me

Hey uhm

What the fuck did I just read and why did I take emotional damage?

Fuck man this manga hurts hard ... after this chapter i recall just .. shutting down the phone laying down trying to sleep while remembering my childhood and staring at celling .

Had no strength to continue reading it after but now i will i gotta see it till the end and hope things get better for her

:(

Her classic game collection is better than mine. My mom made me sell my N64 before I turned 18.

Holy shit

This manga still continĆŗes?

Despite being very dark some times, really helps me when i was on the abbys

If middle school me could could see current me, he'd probably take the easy way out. Proof that things don't get better, might as well get it over with.

I didn't go through with it once, and I no longer have that level of courage. I regret chickening out.

Anyone know what those Roman candle looking things in the last page are supposed to be?

Oh fuck this one really hurt me

Too real

This is so true, except that I keep things clean.

Damn this hitting close to home

Fuck...

Itā€™s never too late to change fellow weebs. You just have to take a leap of faith. Just in the last year I finally started driving, discovered my passion for the arts and started taking better care of myself. You can do it.

I locked away all my yearbooks. Canā€™t handle the pain from seeing them.

Ugh. why do we have to live.

Am I right in saying 3 chapters remain untranslated and the last translation was 6 months ago?

how the hell can you be depressed with all those awesome games

World never stops it won't look back at you, sometimes before we even relise it we do things we regret later, and most of the time we might not be able to pull ourselves back up from drowning in regrets

Don't be me who never went to seek help from a therapist, it is fine to go to them, they won't judge you they will do their best to help, and it will if you're willing to help yourself, make a life your future self won't regret starting now

2anime_irl4me_irl

We didn't realize how good we had it.

How she afford all that

Jesus Christ what the fuck

Hey! Someone wrote a manga about me! Cool!

mad wanks

r/3AMregrets

Unrealistic expectations can often lead to feelings of inadequacy. It means you have high standards, and care when you donā€™t meet them. Everyone can be lazy/unmotivated sometimes. But there are some truly evil people in this world, and having a decent enough head on your shoulders to not be terrible is often taken for granted. However it is truly a commendable trait, and something to absolutely be proud of achieving.

Jesus fucking christ.

fck man i remember tearing up almost every chapter cuz it was all so relatable

Context for what happened?

Nothing major really. She just played with her old Nintendo DS, then took a nostalgia trip, before it hit like a truck.

Went through this myself. Started reflecting on where it went wrong. Started seeing a therapist, got rid of practically everyone I knew, got new friends. Even went so far as to change my public-facing name to my middle name on all fronts. New me, new future. And it's made a hell of a difference.

This *manga makes me cry. I'm literally the same thing, except I actually have a job

Damn you didn't have to do me like that Right in the feels

Sometimes I wonder what would happen if a genie made an offer to each person on the planet to erase them from history. How many people would be left?

Clean your room

And be proud

Dude, wtf, no need to crush us that badly, we know already

Shit, they put my feelings in words. Great, just what i needed. imma read it for maximum emotional destruction.

Bruh

Same but Iā€™m so poor itā€™s either homelessnes, kill myself (or others), or good ol selling crack cocaine.

I feel like I can relate to this a bit

Now this is IRL

Yeah... Kinda get it...

I mean she has like a million consoles and games and an apartment and stuff, that needs money, so she at least has a steady job to pay for all those.

Based on no context cuz I haven't read that lmao

Yeah... About that.... (She is unemployed, live with her parents, and those are her old video games consoles)

Oh man woops

Itā€™s midnight and Iā€™m an adult and live with my family and my room looks like this and Iā€™m a man, and maybe I should read this. I really feel like her right nowā€¦.

this hits too close to home :c

this hits way too close to home šŸ˜¢

Hm... As child i had a very bad time with depression and self harm... I thought I would never be an adult and would be dead now....

I am alive, got a great job, an apartment and soon a car. Well a partner is still missing but that will come someday too. So yay happy šŸ˜…

For fuck's sake. Finally some actual Anime_irl

Its a little too anime_irl for me :(

Eeeee having a job isn't much better if i can say so myself my room is tidy but otherwise its the same disappointment

Holy shit dude I was relating hard and was on the cusp of tears when that last page just made me bust a gut lmaoooo

This fucks

Thats why you expect nothing of yourself so you wont feel like that. Until you realize that if you dont at least try you will still fail.

This is the most IRL thing Iā€™ve ever seen.

Only difference is I didnā€™t try super hard back then either šŸ„²

But I still had big dreams and believed in myself. I was sure one day I would snap out of it.

Bro this hits so hard for me, since i'm in the middle ground, this post Just gave me anxiety

That's so irl šŸ’€

Thank you for ruining my day more, now wheres my criyin room

I feel the same way, and even live the same way, just replace all the stuff with trash.

Lol whats broken cant break so i am good

Just embrace your inner goblin. Things you should do are just expectations from others, and not always the things you actually want. The inner goblin will tell you what you want. If the goblin wants shoulds then you can find a way to get there, but it has to be a want and not a should.

My goblin wants to be entertained, eat food, and rest when needed. So it doesn't matter what i am doing, just that it feels like it matters. Find your goblin, find your peace.

damn... thats depressing

Legit darkest post on this subreddit. I take it personal.

Don't look back. Just look forward. That is the way.

THANK YOU REDDIT FOR BEING ABLE TO LOAD 7 BLACK AND WHITE IMAGES. IT ONLY TOOK 15 MINUTES

Reality often sucks. Better buckle up before the storm comes

Well, this hits a little too close to home...

Oh what a coincidence I was just thinking about the same thing :)))

I'm saving this post so I can feel bad about myself faster everyday. thank you

Been looking intently At background, based on that I can say positively that is not the same room, considering most people donā€™t change rooms without moving to a new house, that is probably HER house. As in she doesnā€™t live with her parents. Meaning that her job allows her to afford a life like that, and she is keeping active enough to maintain that figure, she needs to stop freaking out about living the single life. If it bothers her that much then looking like that it wonā€™t be hard to find someone who shares her interests

Whenever I get thoughts like this I just call my younger self a dumbass who liked Elon musk and then the bad feelings go away as I laugh at my dumbass younger self!

I feel this so much having dropped out of university due to mental health stuff. University was the loneliest experience of my life and Iā€™m not proud of myself for giving up. Iā€™m ashamed of it really

But once I used to be proud of myself. I was proud for sticking with athletics and getting some good grades throughout my school years, but now literally none of that matters anymore. What am I supposed to do with my life? I donā€™t want to just work retail foreverā€¦

Damn... I... I kinda felt that. Nice console collection, though.

Why are they talking to each other looking the wrong way ? šŸ¤”

That was close to home...

Anime is something beautiful

And then people ask why they just do isekai's

When I graduated highschool I opened a letter I had written to myself when I was 12 and damn it was rough reading my 12 year old self blame himself for being bullied and hoping current me luck in finding friends.

Sauce? Canā€™t find it no where in the comments :(

Probably got too many

It's "It's tough being neeko"

I donā€™t see any alcohol, so thereā€™s still saving but once you go down that rabbit hole, oh boy you might need a friend to get you out of that one